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The right one, the right time

I am believing,

not wishing.

I am hoping and not desperate.

Reposted from march 29, 2016 . 1am.
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Still no where to find.

I am starting a crop here, WordPress.com, for what aims or visions? I am still no where to up to.
For what led me here ? My envisions, endeavors, the side of me that seriously right now, no where to find. I know I’ve lost a lot of me (of who I am before ) the day I decided to pursue the present crop I’m having in front of me way back. No regrets. Years had been passing , and a voice inside me still wanting of something. Something that still no where to be find.
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Lamentation #57

🙌😳💭Whenever She see Kathryn Bernardo in An Iconic Tv Interview with Tito Boy A.,

Initial thoughts of

How is She able to find the one and how is He able to find and kept His known The one?



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Season of Exchanging Vows: January 13, 14, 2018 (The Wedding) Escapade

“And they lived

Happily ever after.”

Exactly how every fairy tales ended their stories~ from all the fairy tales She used to read when she was a little girl.

Exchanging of vows is the most ancient part of the wedding ceromony, as they called. These are the words that couples for centuries have spoken to one another, sealed with these simple wordings, bundled with extra ordinary meanings and importance.

She is always a fan of a happily ever after~ From the stories she have read to the parents that was given to her. She even told herself before:

Will I ever recall this certain scenario that I am curious about?

Of “if I’ll still be able to remeber this lil’ special moment the time I’m at the same age as they were that epoch?”

😎💭That night, when my Mum was currently folding the sleeves of my Dad’s suit that he will use for the next day–hanging on the knob of their bedroom’s door, kneeling, and silently polishing its details.

I was on a couch, sitted in a lazy drooping way with my two legs rested nearest on the same surface I was seated, scrutinizing what was Mum doing … 😐💭Why does she have to do all of those? 😑💭Will I’ll be doing the same thing in the future?😥💭Why does it have to be so plain and perfect? 😣She was so intricate.

All were questions but of one thing:

Pretty soon I’ll have mine👪🏡 too. I will have it the same way as I have. There will be no “illegitimate” as what I have heard from one of my classmates in the school that morning. I will soon be composing my 1 complete family, same as how Dad and Mum built for us. I am dreaming exactly what I have– my own future 👪 that soon I will be resting with.

She was now at her 27th year of existence, 😶💭 exactly the age were she pictured herself as an accomplished individual, settled well and finally getting married👰 with her prince charming👑. 💑 Aaah~so sweet 💕. Reality speaking, we are not under a story book 😊, and so as her😥.

Speaking of “picture” 📁📂, look what she had just found …

Way back in college, she has this classmates that have been couples for years. When she was told about their story, she was astonished. The said couples are classmates since pre-school. They were seatmates that time. The affair started from crushes, grew to mutual feelings and soon became boyfriend and girlfriend of each other.

She witnessed how cute these twain lovely people argued about eating a 🍝 served in a single order. How sweet when he fetch and send her 🏡. How pleasant in the feelings seeing him bringing her a 💐 of flowers during their monthsaries. And knowing that their finally gellting married before the end of the year 2017 gives her so, so much kilig to bones. Who could have thought that beyond their unrevealed rocky-road in the relationship will drew them closer to exchanging vows?

Prenup photo uploaded and posted by M. Te

Another person that’s close in her ❤ is the celebrity actress, Anne (Anne Curtis Smith). She is an avid fan of this kalog, wanna-be-singer, one of the great influencer of her generation artist. Aside from a beautiful princess-type relationship goals, she idolized her that much because of the status that this actress is embodying. A single lady at the age of 30, been an ambassadress here and there, and a full blown independent woman.

Hearing from the news that Anne’s close to knotting ties with her 6 year boyfriend is a wow in a blast. And watching her wearing a veil, her veil is L.O.V.E. ❤❤

Not to mention some of her beloved co-SNV who just walked their aisles: Mar and orjane. Best wishes.

I ❤❤ You gals.

Seems everybody’s getting married now~ Wondering … Is it about the age? The stability? They’re ready? The urge? 😲. Oh, when it’ll be?

Too close from the date she made this draft will be her ever dearest cousin’s wedding. Thinking that this theme may yield a Part II that can serve a tribute t😉😉. Plus, plus, the excitement that drew an extravagant enthusiasm over her been years-flat affect face.


See Part II



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Panghoy 81

Habang manghang-mangha sila sa ganda ng kani-kanilang mukha at postura,

Ako’y nandirito, nakatitig sa angking rikit ng bawat tanawing naarok aking mga 👁👁 ~


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TOTGA, Ano iyon?

What’s TOTGA?

Same question I used to ask For so uncountable times.

As they always say it is “the one that got away”.

Then what is that? Will I die if I declare I don’t understand what is it? Certainly not!

Last September 1, 2018 was the first Reunion of my esteemed batchmates 2007-2008 after a long years. A decade indeed. This was new. I never had attended a reunion of old dogs before. Gone those imaginary thinking of 🙃💬 how does a real reunion goes? Would it’ll be like those obsolete movies where the scenario will run more onto about how prestige each one of them gone through after a while? A certain pile of where, one became a well known CEO from a bullied kiddo, a top model from an ugly duckling photo in their black and white year book, or simply the scene of a drunken group keep story-telling their modesty aside stories.

Ugh! 💭🎈📍! But these totally went another way around.

Flashing back– 🎞🎥

We, the organizers, were late from the call time of 5pm down to the programme time of 6pm.

It’s been 6 o’clock and we’re still about to pack up prepared and cooked food for the event. By 8 o’clock Nanay was still looking for me, messaging the group that I was lost and that she’s into searching for me. The fact that I was never and that I have to go inside the supermarket for some drinks to be bucket! And so as we arrived, the gals were seated prettily, so enlightened that finally we’re complete. Sign to start.

As the programme continued, it shook me by surprised of never guessing who could be the speaker of the night. It was him, Mr. Sulit. Through his speech, he tackled how he’ve grown and how he was so dismayed finding out his corners of improvements from once thought perfected drafts. I was like 🤔💬 in all confusion thinking that if he could had thought how incompetent he had been, how come is it more to me knowing nothing but just ~most esp of what I am doing now~blogging. Could you have thought of that? Embarrassing. As he continued, it was all well emphasized how we have matured and became so independent from whatever we never dreamt of becoming. Stunning. Each one of us were bringing own glow from our behinds. Imaging a super timid gal that is now a UK Nurse, those IT BOYS that turned out to be a responsible Man of their wives and a humble Father of their child, the never seen that often but present that day and chooses to stay and A whole lot of changes that cracks out from its constants.

As the night seated, the pool is ready. The drunken masters were starting to be a bit naughty. Jokes were keep cracking and discussions are getting out from its burdens. LOL. Videos and stories will be ever kept within the venue where it was held, Pecson and in the pounding cr💛💛ux of each attendees.

Our reunion prove How far and mature we have become yet able to stick and cherish what and where we all once begun.

Stolen moments from that epoch~



But where is to find the TOTGA thing that started this blog for, in the first place? Spicing on my side, Amidst of all of it (the party and all the communications and exceeded expectations), an old dog barked at me–arf, arf. Shared a piece from some of his stories that was never uttered out loud. Confusing. I must admit, it bugs me the hell whole night!

He’s just cracking some shit, but You are his TOTGA.

Those lil lines whispered that burdens my being that night-onwards~

This Man He often used to mention–interrupting any succeeding conversation for all time that’ll be meeting cross ways was my childhood lover, well, I never really know how to stress that thing out blah blah.

And so I have to sleep now. ~ as I arrived 🏡, I was at peace.


Realizations in life may take a while before it finally lands off, rest assured that things will fall in its proper places as it takes off.

It is not really to my One or someone else’s One that got away BUT it’s the thing that–I never even thought that I can even be that someone else’s The One That Got Away.

The one that got away” is an ex who has an exalted place among your past loves. They are the one you focus about. They are the one who floats to the surface of your thoughts when you are trying to sleep, the one you can still picture a future with — in a parallel universe. You just aren’t sure whether it’s the universe you’re supposed to exist in or whether you belong right here in reality.

The one that got away isn’t someone with whom you had a terrible, devastating breakup. They didn’t cheat on you (or vice versa). Things simply didn’t work out because you were young and immature, or one of you had to move, or you just had other things you needed to do before you found this kind of love. The point is that things never ran their natural course. You never really found out that you two could never work out. It just ended, for circumstances other than falling out of love.

This ex was a good person, your breakup didn’t change your opinion about this.

They are someone who deserves love in their lives, someone another person would be lucky to be with. They had things they needed to work on, but then again, so did you. You’re both good people, but maybe you just weren’t good enough for each other at the time.

The way to spot “the one that got away” is to think of the ex that makes you hopeful about what your future love life can be like, rather than making you upset or pessimistic about human nature. You know your ex — this ex — will always be the one that got away because things will always be unresolved. You still respect them too much to let your breakup tarnish your opinion of them. You know the person you end up with is going to have to do better — the one that got away always raises the bar on what love can really be like.

Some odds really caught my 👁👁thou,

Some men meet the right woman, and then go and fuck the whole thing up and spend the rest of their lives pining after said woman. Here’s how you can tell if that’s the case:

He refriended you on social media after the dust settled. There are a lot of reasons to stay away from an ex after a breakup. For one, that way you have fewer ways to drunkenly contact them … or see how their life has been post-you … or just generally get reminded that they still exist. If he’s still friends with you, it means one of two things: the breakup was pretty amicable and he really doesn’t care, or the pain and suffering is all worth it because he would rather always remember you no matter how much it stings. Do you think that’s beautiful or pathetic? If you think it’s beautiful, you probably still have feelings for him too. If you think it’s sad, you most definitely don’t.

You hear through friends of friends that he always asks about you. That’s his way of saying, “I’m too much of a gentleman (or a coward) to just text you outright.” He knows it’ll get back to you, and he wouldn’t ask if he (1) didn’t care, and (2) didn’t want you to know he cares.

He’s never had a serious relationship since you. He could just be choosy, or to channel the late Prince, this could be a “Nothing Compares 2 U”* situation. Instead, he’s just drifting aimlessly, finding something wrong with every potential partner because they aren’t you. Maybe he even had a few serious relationships that fizzled out because he was still carrying a torch for you. Or maybe he’s careful not to commit himself to anything too serious, so he’s available if there’s ever another window of opportunity to get back together. He’s worried if he were to get a serious girlfriend, you won’t consider him as an “option.”

*To be fair, Sinead O’Connor did a pretty great job of covering it, but let’s be honest, the Prince version is superior. It’s like you’re the Prince version of the song, and every other woman is the Sinead cover. Good, but never as good.

TOTGA will be uncertain. Either you feel insane or indifferent. But the more you couldn’t care less, the more the emotions demand your attention.

– I. Dela Cruz

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Lunch with the President

How was it? How does it feels like to be in a lunch with the President.

🤔💭Hmmm. 🤐Speechless. 😓Clueless. Well, it’s like this. You’ll come in a huge empty hall wrapped with beautiful simple decor ; “Round tables lavishly set” as they call. Lunch is served in a buffet. And everyone that is coming in from an entrance were at their formal business suits. A real wave of 🤤.

Me sitting silently, re-interrogated myself several times if I really deserved to be there. No questions! For I’ll never be there if I’m not. I was sitting there because I am one. One of the invitees. One of ones.

And the lunch went on. People keep coming. Serving themselves with plates and obviously doing these like the usual. Me, on my seat, in a table with the supervisors and uppers, except of the doctors of doctors of course, still wandering for some sorts of whether if I have to transfer my seat where most of my co-heads were sitting. Deeming on myself of where should I really be. Tough. This gone chainy-continuously. And that feeling is still here– re-evaluating grounds of staying.




Wikiledia-lly speaking, Lunch with the President is A state dinner or state lunch is banquet paid for by a the company and hosted by a section heads in his or her official residence in order to renew and celebrate diplomatic ties between all section head departments who was issued an invitation.

ehem …

Relax. It’s just lunch–but it’s also an opportunity to advance your career, as long as you know how to take advantage of it. H🤣H🤣

There will be a lot of people who could be more qualified than you are. But there are only few ones who qualifies the most than you could ever thought of.



The said lunch

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